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Day 20 – Are We Bored Yet?

“Be mindful of your thoughts, Anakin, they betray you. You have made a commitment to the Jedi Order, a commitment not easily broken“
– Obi-Wan Kenobi

The following post was taken from a response to a Dryuary participant who was looking for incentives to keep going on those days Dryuary seems more like a slow uphill slog through cold molasses than a winged flight through fields of sunflowers.

I agree 100%. I am bored with it too by now. That said, for me the full 30 days is required, even if it is just to prove I can do it. It is about resetting your brain, and a habit takes that long to stop being a habit. For me, slipping would end it. If I have one drink it will turn into two, and then three. Then, I will drink tomorrow. And, the day after that. Before I know it, I will be back at the starting line. That is just me. I would feel I “failed”. YMMV (Your Mileage May Vary).

But if I did/do slip, I would/will plan another 30 day period of abstinence for February. This is about solving a problem, and a slip shouldn’t send a person into a spiral of “I can’t do it”. A slip should be a reset point where you say “I slipped but I will try again”. That is what Moderation Management is all about.  January isn’t really the best time to do 31 days of not drinking,  in my opinion. On one Dryuary site, there is a blogger that talks about why they don’t do Dry January, they do February instead. I totally get that. January feels too much like a “New Year’s Resolution” and we all know how those go.

As for my motivation? Weight loss and my liver. I do have fatty liver. I am 6’7” and weight about 280 and should be about 250. So the fatty liver comes with the territory. When I am drinking too much, I can start to “feel” my liver. Not really pain, but pressure on my right side. When I cut out the drinking for a few weeks, that all goes away. Even after 9 days dry, it is feeling a lot better. So, I am not only resetting my brain, but my liver as well. If I can lose 15 lbs it really helps. That is how much I typically lose in a 30 – 45 dry spell. I like seeing the scale numbers drop, I like seeing the puffiness leave my face, and I like the feeling when I can’t feel my liver! That is my motivation to keep going.

Honestly, if I didn’t have any health issues associated with alcohol, I would probably have a much more serious problem with it. I like drinking. As I have said in other posts, I don’t really drink enough to get drunk. I just like the feeling when I am a bit buzzed. But, I pack on weight when I drink and that isn’t healthy. Plus, it makes some of the other issues I have even worse. I have friends who can drink all they want and never gain a pound. I don’t know how they do it.

Best wishes! I totally get where you are coming from.

Post submitted by: Dave (MM member)